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12/12/1987
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Thursday, May 05, 2005
Today is a special day. Coz it's 050505. Nice date huh. been wondering since last nite why i've been waiting for this day to come. only realised juz now when im writing the date on a document i have to sign. But too bad nothing special happened today that's worth remembering.
The whole day i kind of feeling very blur. saw vanessa but didnt realise it was her until she called up my name. and there was yanjing jumping, waving enthusiastically at me. I missed that one too. What have got into me these couple few days. im not the sort who daydream. maybe the uneasy feelings juz got the better of me. not been feeling that well too. but as usual i don't wanna think about it too much. scared? hm maybe a lil bit. mum been pestering me to go to the doctor again and even to malacca for treatment. sigh. a massage can cure me? get rid of all my aches. im not sure about that. complications here and there. i think i have to go to the doc..maybe tmr.
Another reason why im feeling kind of down n no mood is coz ytd i had this 1 terribly bad dream. Someone close to me died. it was really heart wrenching. i almost cried when i woke up this morning. it felt so real. can't imagine if it really happened. she's been so nice to my family. although my uncles and aunties sometyms give her lots of prob. and at least she cares about me and my family too. she juz has so much patience and courage in her. although i may not show it to her. juz wanna say i love u grandma. i've lost my beloved grandpa i wont wanna ever feel losing her. and i really miss my late grandpa. alot! *juz thinking about it makes myself cry* really really miss the old times when he's around. noone could ever replace him. God Bless You grandpa. okay this is really getting me worried and freaked out. is this some call from him.
i think i really have to stop here before i start to think all sorts of nonsense. tsk.
* still figuring out my intuitions*
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