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Friday, April 01, 2005
it's over

Yesterday you called me again. u told me how ur life is in darkness and ur not able to 4get me. As some1 who was once so close to u, i really understand how u feel. i sympathized u. u knew how vulnerable i was and den again u tried to move me. i forced myself to be strong coz i noe what i really want. What was ur motive 2 do all this? if the answer is dat u want me back den im sorry there's no way i wud wanna turn back to someone im not sure i can trust wholeheartedly.

When u asked me whether i still love u, what do u expect me to say? U may want to hear those 3 words from me lyk u used to but i think u've got the wrong idea of who i am. or maybe u dont even noe who i really am. maybe u thought when we were once together and i got to know other guys, i will treat the guys lyk how u treat ur girlfriends??! sorry IM NOT A FLIRT. I will never try to betray the trust Dee gave me. Coz i believe in Karma. What goes around comes around. U shudnt be playing wif my feelings last tym n now its tym for u to accept the fact that it's finally over. Let's juz say, now u get the picture how i will treat some1 when im in a relationship. i WON'T say things that im not supposed to.

I donno what u wud do or plan to do to get over this. If u think going abroad and runaway from this reality will make u a better person den by all means go. For me i dont think i can help u in any way more than a fren. U may think its easy for me to say coz i have Roshdee to turn to. yes i am very happy and glad to have him. Indeed im very thankful to him coz he helped me see life in a different angle. i finally found someone else who cares for me and i really hope he wont do the same mistake lyk u did.

There's no use crying over spoilt milk. everything's over. look ahead and u will find new life wif someone new. and dont u ever play wif ppl's feelings if u dont want ur feelings to b fooled ard. coz i was once a fool. to trust u. even till ytd when u said u've changed. but its all bullshit. i look ard ur friendster and i read the testi Zariyah gave u. Hmm not bad huh. u shud noe what i mean by dat. n tell this to Zariyah. "Sorry i stole ur beloved Hafiz last tym. u can have him back if u dont mind to b a fool. By all means go n DATE him if u want".

You dont need to cry for me who's happy wif someone else. U shud b hating me for having a good life here while u crying over what's past. As i decided to put down the phone ytd i've made up my mind dat the one i love now is Roshdee. see dat! dont worry. i forgive u and i dont hate you. It's finally OVER.
Thanks for the good and bad memories together. I'll never forget that for the rest of my life.


* You only realize how much u love someone once they're gone *. To everyone, please treasure ur loved ones.