Finally i broke down.
14 march was the day i couldnt possibly forget. it was the day where my life took a turning point. i didnt expect it neither did i see it coming.
Today i shall blog every single account of my operation day.
This would b a long entry.


14 March


as i woke up dat morning to get ready for sch, i realised my stomach was in great pain. i lied down helplessly till 9 am until i decided to go to the doctor for a checkup. or mayb juz to get an MC or some painkillers. finally i made my way to sch for the exam. i tot i could endure the pain for at least until i finished the econs paper but halfway thru i passed out. i could merely finished half the paper. i was totally upset wif myself.

When i finally reached home the pain juz got from bad to worse. i couldnt even move a single bit. i couldnt even breathe properly coz i will juz feel the pain piercing thru my bones. And i knew somethin wasnt rite dat day. the pain was juz so..different. Dad noticed the difference and he insisted on sending me to the hosp dat nite.

It was almost 8.30 pm when i reached KK Hospital. saw the doc as she did a thorough checkup and scan on me. by the look on her face i could tell somethin IS wrong wif me. as she finally said dat i could either be suffering from appendix or ovary cease which was den after i went thru another scan dat i got to know i suffered from the latter one.

I was quickly put on a drip and got changed as i must b operated immediately to remove my damaged ovary. i donno what i was actually feeling at that moment. i was still in a dazed and shocked over wat was happening. saw my parents face. guess they were also too shocked to even be sad. it was juz so fast. at the same tym all i wished for is dat the pain will soon b gone after the op.

As i was wheeled into the operation theatre, i still couldnt believe the fact dat i am goin for a major operation.

i wasnt really scared but more lyk..is dis a dream? if it is pls wake me up now.

i was on anaesthetic and soon put to sleep. i woke up as the opeartion juz finished. it was shivering cold. my whole body was shaking until the nurse had to put a heater under the 4 pile of blankets wif socks covering my feet. i was given 4 dose of morphine as the pain was juz unbearable. as a result i couldnt breathe and had to b put on oxygen mask. the operation ended at 2 am.

so i was warded for the next 3 days. from a point where i cant even move to a sitting position and now i can finally walk around a lil bit.

especially mom who's been taking care of me and dad sorry for giving u so much trouble. to my sis and bro thanks for helping me ard to do simple stuffs dat i still cant do on my own. im still workin on it !

and dil must u blog wat actually happened btwn me n dee?? haha dont need la..later if someone who's not supposed to read it got to know how..its meant to b a secret u c..anyway i was touched by ur entry! felt lyk crying. thanks for ur instinct. u saved my life.

Thanks for taking leave juz to visit me. felt so happy dat day ;) all ur encouragement, care and concern juz made me stronger each day to live my life to the fullest. Although im only left wif 1 ovary and dat means i may not/ may be at risk to have children 1 day, u still stood by me no matter what. I noe ppl have been talkin bad things bout me being in dis state as it will also mean effecting ur future but still u chose not to listen to dem. I donno how to express my gratitude to have someone lyk u. A point where i really need someone by my side. you juz make me special whenever im wif you. i really love you!

looking fwd to a future together.

Yanjing, Vanessa, Geraldine, Radzimah, Kamarul, Changda, Dorence, Eldwin and Ismail. Thanks for visiting me and cheer up my day!! YJ!! thanks for the lovely card! and to the rest of my friends thanks for the care and concern. I will b back!!! Pray for my fast recovery!

to dr. hans - thanks for the concern and fast action to treat my sickness

nurses (esp. the nyp nursing student) - still remembered the day after my op where i cant even move a single bit, u have to do EVERYTHING from changing me, and when i still need to pass urine using bedpan. thanks for everything!! and all staffs there. thanks alot for making my stay der a pleasure one.

All this will b an experience that i wont forget for the rest of my lifetime.